True Devotion

Disclaimer: This post isn’t good. I wrote it a while back and found it so horrible I just kept it as draft. You’ve been warned.

On the way to [Former] Manfriend’s family gathering over the Christmas holidays, we listened to what’s her name. You know the one who had the surgery. The one doing one year and a day in jail. The one who asked that we put our lighters up. And I had some questions. He said I just wasn’t passionate or maybe it’s good that I don’t understand. But look, for the life of me, I can’t understand her devotion, on a romatic level, to Chris Wallace. Sure she should be thankful because he helped made her initial career. But the relationship stuff? Not so much.

I’ve seen a few interviews where she’s spoke about her feelings for him. In one of her songs she talks about having an abortion (I recall it as a song but she might have said it in an interview.). Now, work with me on this. Chris…I think I can call him by his first name cus we’re cool like that since I purchased a few of his albums. He was seeing Kimberly but turned around and married Faith. Yet, he still kept seeing Kimberly?? Kimberly aborted the baby they made, but his wife, had their baby and was his wife (nevermind if they were or were not together) when he died. Still, Kimberly speaks of unyielding devotion to him. This, I can’t understand.

As the mistress, the side piece, the jump off, you really loose a lot of your footing when you start to believe you are more than that. And when a man publicly chooses another woman over you, you sorta play yourself when, even after death, you’re still clinging to his scrotum. In my opinion, he clearly chose Faith to legally bind himself to. Therefore, he chose her over Kimberly.

I’ve never understood how women get it so twisted when the man puts it in her face. You start seeing a guy. Then all of a sudden, he has a wife, a fiance, a girlfriend that isn’t you. I’m having trouble wrapping my mind around a circumstance where it’s OK to think you have pull as the mistress. If this man is telling you, showing you, that in the pinch, you might be his ride or die broad, but when real push comes to real shove, you aren’t the one he chooses.

I think about the more urban types who think just because the man they are screwing asks them to tote drugs hither and yon on his behalf, he has a high level of respect for her. Da hell?? If someone, anyone truly cares for you and is not concerned with using you for personal gains, s/he will not place you in harms way. Right? Am I wrong on this??

After we listened to Kimberly’s album, I give it two shakes of the head and a double-Oh-NO, we listened to Chris’ duets. Even on his duets, his wfie, who has since married, is featured and Kimberly isn’t. Could their love be so deep that nobody else understands?? Me thinks not. Me thinks she just delusional.

I’m loyal. Sometimes to a fault. (However, I will not high-five a friend when they are doing something foul.) I’ve have friends I barely speak to anymore. And they are still my friends. So what I haven’t been as good with calling them back lately! I still love them all very much. And if push came to shove, they know I’m always in their corner. But if they ever did anything to harm me, not just hurt my feelings, but do something with the clear intent of harm, it’s over. CURTAINS! Case closed. End of story.

This is why it’s so hard for me to understand how Kimberly can be so blindly loyal to the memory of Chris Wallace. Does she think using his name will increase record sales??